I can think of many clever ways to describe to you that I am both a dreamer and a realist. The truth is, however, I am not very good with words. I can think of all the beautiful words that I would like to be together in the same place to tell you about myself, but somehow I cannot make them form a conclusive thought or even a sentence.
I dream all day, everyday, of the day that my life is used to make a difference. I like to believe that someday I will make an impact in this world. It may only be on a single soul, or maybe a body of people, or maybe even the whole world. It does not matter. If I get to live out the change that I want to see in the world, then I think I have lived a full life.
Because my heart so desires to help people, I often find myself spending a lot of time thinking about what it would be like to be a hero. Or... some one's hero. Or... heroic. I mean... what defines a hero? Is it because you are a savior? Is it because you have a cape? Is it because you possess a superpower? I may never know.
I am not very creative. I say this because, dreamers are suppose to be creative... and I am not.
I am not often the person who invents great ideas. Realistically, I will never make millions because my brain crafted an elaborate plan that people will bandwagon to with support and throw their money at. I am not that girl. I am, however, so incredibly pleased to assist anyone and everyone in making their dreams come true. Even if all I can do is give you a hug or a smile, and some candy to ease your weary soul.
I try not to take a starring role, even in my own life, but I do tend to make my presence know. I would not describe myself as quiet, only in my soul, but I appreciate silence more than most people do. I like to be alone, and I like to be with others. I like all the same old people, and I like making new friends. There are very few things I have tried that I would never do again, but of course there are a few things I would rather not relive.
Loving God and loving others are two of my top priorities. If I'm not living for God, all things are meaningless.
It might be unusual, but I am thankful for the fact that I will never fully know all there is to know about God. I like the idea of being able to learn something new about Him everyday.
In college I studied Counseling, but I have yet to figure out what I'm going to do with my degree. My heart breaks for people who are in inevitably vulnerable situations... like the 27 million slaves in the world today or little babies all around the world who have to live unclothed and exposed because their families cannot afford clothing. I want to hug everyone. And love everyone. And, I wholeheartedly wish to live my life in service. I believe that as a child of God and a believer that God as called me into ministry - but I think that ministry is everything we are doing in our daily lives. Living, breathing, eating, working... those are all things that can be used to minister to others. I want to help others, in all the things that I am doing. I want to be a good example. I want people to know and love Christ through me.
I just want people to know they are loved.
Everything else is unimportant.
