Summer - ugh.
I've never really been a fan of vacations, mostly cause I really like being in school - it makes me feel like I'm not wasting my life. And also, cause vacations are never really a break for me... I usually just work a lot, and then find no relaxation. But really, I don't like vacations because it leaves so much room for my head and heart to run wild. It's like I have nothing better to do but fantasize and imagine... which really gets me nowhere but hurt or confused.
I'm firm believer in solving problems - and when I have nothing better to do with my time, why not solve every one's problems? I can spend hours fixing lives - in my head - and that really gets me nowhere as well. Cause then I believe I've figured out all the problems and found all the solutions and then when no one does things the way I would... I get frustrated.
This summer has been no exception... and if I really think about, which believe me - I have, this is probably the worst summer I've ever had. It's been draining, and tiring, and sometimes even devastating. No fun summer. No fun.
I just don't know where I'm suppose to find resolution in this? How does one turn their brain off? or imagine less?
When I was younger, well in high school, I use to read a lot... to distract my over thinking head and just imagine the stories.
Maybe I should do that again?
